Every Man For Himself

Benjamin Linus was right, it was undeniable. Juliet looked too much like Jack's wife for this to be a coincidence. But Jack was buying it, he couldn't stop looking at her, and he was hanging on her every word. For the first time in months, I saw him smile and laugh, like he'd been happy all along.

I wondered if it was dark outside, it was always dark inside the Hatch. Even though I knew, I wondered how long I'd been inside, entering the numbers, and pressing the button. I didn't want to do it anymore, I never wanted to do it. Ever since I started, I'd been trying to stop, but I couldn't. Because I'm alone in the Hatch.

I use my time to dissect my past, investigate my mistakes. They are so loyal, they'd never leave, they make sure to keep me warm when I get cold. I closed my eyes, and just for a moment, I disappeared into a made-up dimension named space. When I opened my eyes the door to the Hatch was open and the sky was purple.

The Water Around His Island Is Shallow...I've Suffered But I've Seen The Light

The MacCutcheon went down easily. I swallowed a delicious loss and as I listened to Desmond's story about Mrs. Hasking, I felt a deep, bloodcurdling void. But then I remembered the gray sky, the Island, and my baby in the water.

I'd give anything, I'd kill, I'd die, I'd fight to see the bluest sky, and I'd let it all go. I don't mind the rain, I don't mind the sins that we all pay for... I'd do what it takes. I want to see him swim. I lived my life for him, and he lives like he doesn't know I exist. But the same day makes both our skies grey.

We fight on the same island, we fight the same fight, but somehow, we live under different skies. I wonder why that might be, I wonder why his time, space, and physics don't exist in my universe. Perhaps it's because he doesn't know the water the way I do, he can't give like me. He's a narcissist.

He's lost, and can't be found.